Through the past year, alot has happened.
As a Christian, I've experienced both the joy's and sadness of life in Christ.
As a teenager, I've seen alot of craziness,fought alot of fights, lost a few people in my life, and have gained a tremendous amount of self apprehension and insight.
I've learned that things are not always blissful, but (as always) there is a silver lining to every cloud, despite how hard it is at the moment to recognize it.
Cheesy, no?
It's true. Shit happens. But there's always something revitalizing, loving , and placatory to be found. There's beauty out there. Real, attainable, semblant beauty. There's always a lesson to be learned.
Good can come from the worst experiences, but not if you forget to remember.
So today, January 5th 2007, I'll remember.
I'll recall my visit to Texas, when I realized not everything was how I wanted it to be. How I dreamed it would be.
I'll recall March 5th, 2006. A day when the calm was shattered, friendships put to the test, and lives lost. I'll recollect all I gained from the experience, as well as all I lost.
I'll commemorate the day of my baptism, April 15th, and I'll relive how holding the light of Christ in my hands felt.
I'll revive the day that I realized, things don't always go as planned.
As humans, we place ourselves into an un-known world of faith. A world where only the mighty of heart are willing to go. It is a journey all its own, and we can only trust that our spirits know the way. For we cannot see what lies ahead, and we cannot pave the future of it. We must but honorably walk forward. We are, by relinquishing, surrendering to faith.
So as you make your choices and prepare yourself to live among them, do all you can to live honestly with yourself. It would be impossible not to have expectations, but know they are just that. Your greatest growth and joy will come when you have the ability to search for hope and promise in the unexpected.
Happy New Year.
