I will not overreact and jump to conclusions.
Why do I find myself consistently embarking on a path so blatantly treacherous?
I don't know.
sabato, giugno 30, 2007
Wouldn't it be nice if we were older? Then maybe you'd be less of a psycho bitch.
I've never had anyone hate me before.
But let me tell you, my sister does.
It tears me apart.
The majority of siblings in our position will never see eachother again.
I am here. Ready, and accepting.
But instead of being happy about our could-be-relationship, and cherishing the little bit of time we have together.
She loathes me.
She sees me as "immediate competition" for her father's affection.The father who, genetically, we both share.
She sees me as a "cosmopolitan, un-worldly, blond, bitch"
She knows her dad loves me as well, and it fucking kills her.
I SHOULD just shake it off, and say "Well, she's young. Only a freshman in high school. I'm a senior. That's a big maturity difference. And she's a self proclaimed princess. I can't expect anything from her. I know she isn't ready for this"
But why the fuck would I do that?
I can't accept the situation "animalistically" as I should. I can't just buy into the fact that shes jealous, and its natural. It should be tolerated.
Fuck no it shouldn't be tolerated!
Someone needs to tell her that I am not going away. I'm not going to leave her family because she doesn't like me there.
Yeah. And she wants to scour through adoption records to find our other siblings. That's a fucking joke. She can't even handle a relationship with me, and she wants MORE of me?
She thinks she's special and superior, because she stayed with our parents and I didn't.
Like I had any choice in the matter.
Like it was my fault.
Like I was inferior.
Our last visit, ended badly. I can't deal with her. I hate her. I can't bring my self to WANT to go to Texas for a week, and see her in July. I can't fathom having to sleep near her, or look at her, or hang out with her, or bond with her.
The time for loving and bonding is long gone.
It looks like she got what she wanted.
But let me tell you, my sister does.
It tears me apart.
The majority of siblings in our position will never see eachother again.
I am here. Ready, and accepting.
But instead of being happy about our could-be-relationship, and cherishing the little bit of time we have together.
She loathes me.
She sees me as "immediate competition" for her father's affection.The father who, genetically, we both share.
She sees me as a "cosmopolitan, un-worldly, blond, bitch"
She knows her dad loves me as well, and it fucking kills her.
I SHOULD just shake it off, and say "Well, she's young. Only a freshman in high school. I'm a senior. That's a big maturity difference. And she's a self proclaimed princess. I can't expect anything from her. I know she isn't ready for this"
But why the fuck would I do that?
I can't accept the situation "animalistically" as I should. I can't just buy into the fact that shes jealous, and its natural. It should be tolerated.
Fuck no it shouldn't be tolerated!
Someone needs to tell her that I am not going away. I'm not going to leave her family because she doesn't like me there.
Yeah. And she wants to scour through adoption records to find our other siblings. That's a fucking joke. She can't even handle a relationship with me, and she wants MORE of me?
She thinks she's special and superior, because she stayed with our parents and I didn't.
Like I had any choice in the matter.
Like it was my fault.
Like I was inferior.
Our last visit, ended badly. I can't deal with her. I hate her. I can't bring my self to WANT to go to Texas for a week, and see her in July. I can't fathom having to sleep near her, or look at her, or hang out with her, or bond with her.
The time for loving and bonding is long gone.
It looks like she got what she wanted.
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